What 20 Feels Like

Age. It’s a funny thing. As we go throughout our school experience age means so much to us. In high school being 18 and dating a 16 year old is just not cool! But being 18 and dating someone 21 than that’s awesome to your peers. Yet, as I have recently turned 20 age is like this new factor. I kind of feel old…
Growing up you constantly hear people talk about your “20’s.” There are so many articles you see and read about doing things in your “20s.” Everyone seems to have an opinion about how to live throughout these next 10 years. “You’ll never get them back” or “These are the best years of your life” I mean really? Who’s to say that 19 wasn’t great? Who’s to say that being 22 is going to be awesome? 
What does being 20 really mean? To me 20 feels old. I’m no longer a teenager. In my 20s I want to get married, and have kids. This doesn’t feel so far away anymore and it hasn’t for awhile, but now it feels even closer. It’s even more of a reality of how fast time passes.
Being 20 makes me feel grown up. I’ve been an adult for 2 years already, but now it feels real. It makes me realize how much I rely on my parents for things, and how much I maybe shouldn’t. I have this feeling that I should be grown up already. Like all of the sudden…boom…I’m 20. I’ve always been different than most college kids, but now I feel like I’m 20. Do I even act 20? and what does acting 20 mean?
I’m almost half way through college, and now I am 2 decades into life. It passes so fast and things can change in just a moment. God is in control of it all, but I don’t want to take any moment for granted. Maybe I’ll do something crazy in my 20’s, and maybe I’ll live just a plain normal life. But whatever these next 10 years hold I just want to enjoy them. I want to love each and every moment and circumstance that God gives to me. The wonderful, the good, the bad, and the horrible. Tomorrow isn’t promised to me. So here’s to thank God for one more day, and for the last 20 years. 
What does being 20 mean to you? What do you love or remember about your 20’s?
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    I seriously love this post. I was the exact same way when I turned 20…"i'm not a teen anymore?!" Like I had to really grow up! But I love this and all of your birthday celebrations! Happy (belated) 20th birthday!

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      Thank you so much! Yeah it just feels so strange! Normally a birthday passes as if it was nothing, but this one has really felt different.

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